Was it coincidence or a divine intervention.

Was it coincidence or a divine intervention.

Years have come and gone from some dark times and much has changed for me. Today is a marking of time that changed where I was to where I am. I had lots of thoughts during that dark time that many a person can relate too. I wanted to change, I wanted to die, I wanted to live, I wanted to be happy, I wanted understanding, I wanted help, I wanted to be left alone, I wanted acceptance, I wanted to believe in a higher power, and many more.

Of all the places I so wanted to be in my life it was to be in a good place in my mind. Some would tell me “well you have been in tons of places.” That is true physically I have been lots of places. But at a time of darkness I wasn’t mentally, emotionally, and spiritually balanced in my life. Being in some of the most breathtaking places in the world is very meaningless when your soul is at war with itself.

Being fully directed in life doesn’t come solely by the instruction and direction of people, but by having a deep connection with a power greater than man or this world. Great instructions by others around us can point us to that source of power, but the connection is up to us to make happen. So hence there is no chemical or physical solution to a spiritual problem. That connection has been an intrical part of my change of heart and soul.

Those days I thought to end it, something came to stop me.  Was it coincidence or a divine intervention of sorts? Some may bat that one around some, but for me I know. Was it because there was more for me and my life that needed to be written? Was it to help me or some other person to crawl out of a dark hole of despair and pain? Either way a lot has happened in those years. I can say with all my soul there is a strong power in darkness, but the power of things in the light is greater by trillions.

I think each year as I reflect today about the struggle of a man named Alma. He struggled with the darkness of soul, and came to grasp the light and comfort of that power of light in his change of mind and soul. If his life can be changed, then there must be some hope in a world trying to persuade us to have no faith in a power of light greater than all. Alma’s words “I racked, even with the pains of a damned soul”. He was racked as some of us have been or are yet until his mind caught hold of the name of the King of light. His problem was a spiritual one too.

I have come to know many a person who have found this light in their lives. We all may have a slight difference of our practice of worship of this King of power and light, but we know of his grace, love, understanding, and power. For he walked that path in darkness as he prepared to cross from this life to the next. The dark one does his best to push doubt in our minds as to the love of the King of light because we feel we can’t be worthy of his love. In spite of our flaws of character, weaknesses, and down falls he is forgiving of us. We are human and stumble as we live our imperfect lives the best we can.

I have traveled many a steep path on adventures with places of high grander and places of splendor and peace. Being in those places with a soul filled with light, understanding, and peace has been an enlightenment of greatness that there is a powerful God or Higher power that is with us. There are a few other places with the same peacefulness and sacred reverence.

For someone that may be struggling with your soul take hope you not alone. For those that have struggled and found hope to change, congratulations on your change. Do not put that “period” in your life keep it open to more for there is more unwritten. Use every day as a “semicolon” and add a new page, a new chapter, and a new book to your series of life each and every day. Add in the story adventures with good friends, family, and new faces you meet along the way. Connect with that power of greater light that your life maybe enhanced and filled with understanding. Share with others hope and love that they are not alone. The real prize for the fight of sobriety and serenity, is waking up not in jail, institutionalized, or planted in the grave and remembering that our lives are good. We have not failed if we but keep trying to succeed. Live laugh love!